Hey gang! Sorry, we don't have internet at our house, so I've been kinda, ya know....out of things for a bit.
SO. I'm in a bit of a pickle. Steve and I fight almost constantly, haven't slept together in almost a month, and he decided to start working nights again. Does anyone remember what happened the last time he worked nights? Do ya? It was horrid. Terrible. And it still is. Because not only do I have to watch Alex all day, and not go anywhere or do anything, but then he works all night, so I have to take care of Alex all night as well. Not only that, but when he is home and not asleep, he's on the computer.
What about his freaking family?

So yeah. I've been going without affection, but trust me, we've been fighting a lot. Yesterday, for instance. He told me he hated and loathed and despised me. He's said about 3 times now. I know, I should leave, right. I mean, he told me that he's been thinking about cheating on me, and says it's my fault.

On the other side of the spectrum, I definitely am tired of the relationship. I don't even care if he has sex with someone else, or falls in love with someone else. Not anymore. I just want to run away. If he'd let me get my license, instead of keeping me at home and telling me we don't have the funds, I'd have left a long time ago, and he probably knows it.

I think all that's left at this point is the getting it over with. Figuring out who will get what, custody issues, and all that.

Personally, I'm wishing he'd just leave.

And Gabe's in town. No, I'm not spurred on because of this, I just...I guess I miss him. And need someone sensible, even if it's for just a few hours.

Ugh. I'm in a triangle of confusion. I just need to get my own place.