I'm old fashioned. I think that men should behave in a certain way, and women should behave in a certain way. I believe that cyber sex is just as bad as having actual sex. The physical act may not have been done, but they still have attempted the act, tried to do it to the best of their ability, and succeeded.

I am torn. I am hurt.

I have been thinking upon this, and I don't know what to do, Streamers.

Steven confessed to me last night that he had cyber sex with another woman. At first I didn't know how to feel, and I was rather unfeeling about it. I told him that it was no big deal....rather than say that I needed time to think about it. But it's gnawing at me. A lot. To say the least, I feel like cancer is growing inside of me.

Tonight, I spoke with Steven, and explained that I was hurt, and I felt he had cheated on me with another woman. He was pretty quiet. He was upset that I had not told him that I was upset about it, and that I had pretended it was nothing. But last night was a really good night, and I didn't want to fight with him right before surgery. You never know what could happen.

He said that I was trying to be hurt to make him feel bad, and that I was just trying to hurt him. I was disappointed that he thought so highly of himself-it was definitely not about hurting him. I was trying to make him understand that I couldn't handle what he had done. To me, he could have gotten a hotel and slept with another woman, and I'd still say, "You cheated on me." The intent was there, the actions were there, to me-that's all there is to it.

I explained to him that I didn't care how long ago it had been, it was during our relationship, and it was a big deal to me. I told him that normally, I'd dump him and go. But....he is the father of my son, and I....I can't forget that.

So I told him that tonight was his one chance to tell me anything that he had done over the last year.

He told me that he had done nothing wrong- (besides that whole thing) and I don't know that I believe him.

He tells me to stop being so insecure, that he would never do anything to hurt me, but he did. And suddenly, all the walls are back into place. Suddenly, I don't know that I can trust him ever again.

I have told him that I need a few weeks to think on it.

He has told me that if I am expecting him to jump through hoops, forget it. He also told me that he loved me and that he wanted me to be with him.

Any advise?